It has been a while tat i blog again...
Well just another random blog i guess...
Visited my dears blog just now... Hmm... glad that he is turning to be a medic soon... as in full fledged medic... tat is good... realli good... and i am happy for him...
Well i have always been thinking bout him... although we do meet on weekends... if not alot... but a least once...
Maybe cos that once you are attached to one person that you love... you will think about him... be it in times of trouble, happiness, sadness, or in any occasion... even if it is just daydreaming... i would also day dreaming of being with him...
Well... from what i know... after he ends his Medic course... heard that maybe he is going back to Tekong again... to finish where he have left off... BMT... then once after that... he will be going to redo medic course again... and be a full fledged combat medic...
The most is to me... I am going to suffer again... cos if he goes into tekong again... tat means tat i am not going to be able to see him often... just like before... when the time he was in Tekong previously...
It is not that i mind or not... but i mean i have to wait patiently for him.... and many of the time... i am able to do so...
Recently... i just think that to have to wait and going thru this suffer yet another time... i think i am going to suffer even more... not sure is it becos due to me being busy these moments... that i think this way... or is it becos i kinda miss him much...
Well... these days... i just realised that he is not talking to me bout his thoughts much often again... dunnoe if it is me or wat...
But oh well... come to think of it... dear dun realli visit blogs... so i guess... he wouldn't be here to read my feelings...
Guess i just think tat i have to suffer it all alone... >_<
Hopes that he can just come to calm me down and once more... to just make me feel assured of what he is doing would be ok...
I love him... love him... love him...
But now... i keep on finding tat he is somewhat drifting away from me... and the distance... may be bigger... and bigger...
I am worried... very worried yet again...
I miss him... misses him alot lot more as seconds passes...
I think of him... thinking more and more as it fills up my mind with him and nothing else...
I just wish... wishing that things would be alrite... and i am being ensured of...
Love... Trust... Bonds... Understanding... Care...
Him....
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